Dear Past Decade, You Didn’t Break Me.

Dear Past Decade,

Hello 2020, you’re so close I can almost see you. So now it’s time to say goodbye to the last decade of my life.

From the very beginning, you tried to break me. You tested my limits, you brought me to my knees. Time and time again, I said I wouldn’t take it anymore yet you kept on dishing it, pushing me more and more. Well guess what, you didn’t break me, you only made me stronger. Made me proud of what I could be, what I have become. That’s not saying I’m perfect, in fact, I am feeling very far from that these days. But I have found some clarity and know what I need to move forward.

And I can’t say that the entire decade was a complete bust or failure. It was not. Along with the lows, there were so many highs. The boy and I have created so many memories that will last us a lifetime. We’ve laughed, we’ve done things I never thought I/we would do. I’ve learned so much about myself as a person and as a Mom and what I am capable of doing.

The boy has grown from an infant into a tween that I could not be more in love with or prouder. He’s taught me so many things about myself that I never knew were possible. He lifted me up when others tried to break me. I can’t wait to see what the next decade brings him as he matures into an adult. Gasp!!

Through all the highs and lows, I’ve learned so many things about myself and what I could achieve if I really put my mind to it.

Friendships were gained and lost. Actions spoke louder than words and to those that are still here by my side, I can’t thank you enough.

We lost some good people, we were reminded how important our health is and to take everyday as a blessing. There were times when my plate was so full with heartache and upset, I was afraid to think what could come next. But you didn’t break me and I will never ask how can it get any worse, because it can always get worse.

So 2020, you come to me with so much promise, so many adventures to have, so much goodness to be had. I can’t wait for it all to unfold.